Moving Out Of My Own Way

This story is about another layer of me, being peeled away. I started a book club and currently we are reading “The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide To Personal Freedom” by Don Miguel Ruiz. As I was listening to the second agreement, I was grateful to receive it into my being. I am just coming…

Finding Peace

Let me tell you a little bit about my parents. They are stoic, caring, kindhearted, soft, world loving people. They both had difficult childhoods. They both overcame adversity, but suffered major trauma. They are strong people. When my parents decided to start a family, they wanted their kids to have an amazing childhood. My parents…

I’ve Been Cracked Right Open

I have just lived a BrenΓ¨ Brown Ted Talk. Funny thing, I have watched this talk previously and thought, “Oh ya, I get it, sounds easy”. Ha! It is so easy, but so difficult at the same time. Changes are happening so fast, this brought me clarity. You see, I have experienced trauma in my…

Stand For Yourself

  Stand for yourself To create a real sense of self worth, you must believe it for yourself. True belief comes from the inside, it’s what you strive to be. It’s standing in your own space and loving what you see. Make a list of the things you love about yourself and strive to be…

The Road To Balance

I practice self sacrifice behavior to a fault. There is a middle of the road. Let me tell you two stories about the extremes of my road and why it is harmful to live there. I used to race my road bike. One of the best gifts I received from racing was that you could…

Shining Through The Shadows

I have been having difficulty sharing my stories out with a wider community.Β  As I struggle to figure out why, I am a mess right now. I am disjointed trying to make sense of it. I am going to leave this mess up, because it is real. Something in here really lead me realize yesterday,…

The Day I Became Real

  It can be unbelievably difficult to feel real from our own perspective. Sometimes we don’t even see it happening, until we are so real our seams just burst open with love. We don’t even realize all of our fluffies are pouring out everywhere. Momma, Master Yoda’s fluffies are falling out everywhere. My shoulder woke…

Some Days You Gotta Dance

Can’t sleep, frozen shoulder gets worse at night. I had to get up and stretch. I was reminded by my tribe of an awesome book I have by Louise L. Hay, called Heal Your Body. In it, you can look up body parts and symptoms. She gives you healing affirmations. I have the affirmations on…

Imperfections Of The Journey

The struggle is real…playing one armed tug with my dog just a bit ago. Jedi is a gift to me in so many ways. πŸ˜‚ He is trying to keep me from getting my shoulder stuck again. I am grateful for his ability to keep us moving. He gave the toy a few hard tugs…

On The Move!

I am 2 months into rehabbing a frozen shoulder. It is quite painful, but I am grateful it is finally getting unstuck. The inflammation pushes my shoulder awkwardly out of the socket. My physical therapist warned me it can take 1 -2 years to heal. I cannot accept that. I think with hard work, it…

I Am Grateful

I noticed something interesting this week, while we were out walking on our trails. We were just about to the back side of the land. It is a long fenced section. We hadn’t anticipating needing to fence it, but had some motivation for doing so. One day my neighbor thought my husband was mowing on…

Why Did She Wait So Long

Shame kept me quiet… I was at the Salvation Army day camp. They would take groups of kids to various lakes during the summer months. My friend and I would go often to hang out at the beach. This particular summer, I was maybe 12. I had on my new swimsuit. It was turquoise blue,…